I'm just really, really tired today.
The culmination of these evens was that I would develop CPTSD (Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) and whilst I had always suffered from anxiety, this period would maximise that condition into hyper-anxiety or hyper-vigilance.
In my experience, the best way to describe an epiphany is that of an immediate and rapid transformation of perspective, from deep denial to total acceptance. It’s like ENLiGHTENMENT in many ways, but ENLiGHTENMENT is an actual phase shift in CONSCiOUSNESS, whereby REALiTY itself changes and i experience a singular (((SHARE)D) CONSCiOUSNESS) that is distinctly separate from that of EGO. An epiphany happens when we suddenly wake up out of denial and begin to interpret our REALiTY as it is, rather than as we wish it to be.
I think I'm upset that I'm struggling to LET GO of stuff.
I'm a little anxious about getting my head down and stuck into a work routine again.
I find this holiday season to be particularly draining and irritating.
I've finished my Step 2 and 3 in Co-DA and have begun working Step 4.
Life begins at 40?
When I have faith and trust in the universe, everything becomes that little bit easier.
This last week has been really boring.