I've been down this road before.
My current mood seems to also affect my perception of both the past and the future. Is this part of the "normal" human experience or is this more of a bipolar-2 type manifestation?
It's all about acceptance. Acceptance is the key. If I accept myself and my own experience, knowledge and wisdom, I don't need to argue the toss with someone who I don't agree with.
"Recovery never gets any easier, you just get stronger."
When I feel tired I tend to use food to perk me up. What's been interesting today is that I've not wanted to eat carbs and have veered towards a more keto style diet. I've just accepted this is how I am and done the best that I can.
Developing the perspective of the observer, rather than getting dragged into a mental argument with myself, has been key in finding and maintaining "the gap". The gap is that space between EGO and CONSCiOUSNESS.
Fighting depression is insanity, because ultimately I am only ever fighting myself. I lost over and over again, until I learnt to surrender. When I stop fighting I can begin healing and that starts and ends with COMPASSiON.
I've learnt that you can't run from depression or anxiety. The answer is to stop and embrace your BEiNG with compassion and empathy.
Broadly speaking, I find that there are two types of people. Those in recovery and those who have yet to find it.
Today has been another day spent away from the keyboard, at least insofar as doing any writing is concerned. I went to see Kathy this afternoon. Kathy owns and runs a small, but well known, IT magazine publishing company, so I thought it might be beneficial to have a conversation with her about my writing. …