JOURNAL ENTRY: Monday 15 June 2015

I’m going to start off with a gratitude list today. Since entering into recovery I’m consciously feeling more and more grateful everyday, so I thought it was about time I consciously wrote something down.

Today I am grateful for:

  • The bed that I woke up in, it was comfy and safe
  • The water that I showered with, it was warm and invigorating
  • The food that I ate, it was wholesome and plentiful
  • The tools at my disposal, they allow me to be creative and expressive
  • The people in my life, they give me strength and renew my energy
  • The wealth to understand that there’s more to life than money, it’s only this moment that matters
  • The gift of giving, both to others and to myself
  • The wisdom to accept myself, it is the path to inner peace

Today I am grateful to be alive and I couldn’t have said that and really meant it, even just 2 weeks ago. I am grateful for both my physical and mental health. I am grateful for my continued sobriety. I am grateful for the wisdom to learn to let go and to learn to stop looking. I am grateful to be connected and accepting of who I am.

In the fellowships we teach each other to strive for progress, not perfection.

Recovery doesn’t just happen because we think it will. We have to want it and we have to work for it.

If I choose to be present I am choosing peace.

Progress, not perfection. The first takes a little patience, the later takes a lot of practice and nothing happens without participation.

I’ve suddenly thought that I need to watch Trainspotting again. Wasn’t the slogan… ‘choose life’, because I do indeed choose life.

I’m starting to see a pattern, and it’s early days so I may well be wrong, but people who struggle with the concept of God or a Higher Power seem to have a slower recovery than those who don’t. The reason I’ve written about my Higher Power is because I think the religious concept of God is a load of total bollocks. You can’t be told what you’re Higher Power is, you can only know your Higher Power and when you know, you know. If we all found our Higher Power rather than just believing in a God, the world would finally know peace.

Religion just causes war, so I don’t want you to believe in my God, I want you to be connected with yourself and to experience your Higher Power on your own terms and in your own unique and special way, just like me 😉

Anyway, I’m not here to preach, I’m just here to share.

I’ve covered all my basis today and I’ve done all the basics and I am pleased to report that it’s working.

  • I have followed my 4 step morning routine
  • I have only had 2 cups of real coffee
  • I have drank plenty of water and remained hydrated throughout the day
  • I have eaten regularly and not allowed my blood sugar levels to drop
  • I have remained present and in the moment

I have done these things because I want to get better and I want to be better. I want these things for me, so that I can find what I need and share what I learn.

Until tomorrow, peace be with you.


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