JOURNAL ENTRY: Thursday 18 June 2015

It felt like I had the best nights sleep I’ve had in ages last night. When I checked my sleep pattern on my health band, it did indeed indicate that I had a pretty unbroken nights sleep.

There are a few things that I could put this down to:

  • I was out in the sun yesterday and got a bit red, so I did soak up some vitamin D. I haven’t done that in a while and maybe I was lacking some sun exposure.
  • I battled with and overcame my negative mental state yesterday. Perhaps that fact that I was deliberately more aware and more present yesterday made a difference.
  • I ate a lot of food and drank a lot of water during the day and didn’t have much towards the end of the day, so maybe with all the sun and mental exercise my body and mind were drained and ready to accept sleep.
  • I did my journal as normal but I didn’t read or listen to an audio book. I put my head on the pillow and accepted that I wanted to sleep. Maybe my intention to sleep, rather than thinking in the back of my mind that I won’t sleep, made a big difference.

Whatever the reason, I have felt really calm and present today. I didn’t make time to meditate before I left my aunt and uncles this morning, but I’ve felt fine throughout the whole day.

I had a lovely drive back and caught a bit more sun on the way too.

When I got home I decided to go to a local garden and just enjoy an hour sitting peacefully in the shade. I had felt really energise throughout the day, but I realised as I drove there that I was started to fade, energy wise.

I found a nice spot under a tree and did about half an hour of unguided meditation. I took a little stroll around some of the gardens, sitting and trying to connect with my surroundings but I was finding it a little difficult. I think my blood sugar levels were getting low and I was struggling to maintain concentration. I took it easy on myself and just tried to enjoy the walk.

When I got home I ate some salad and prawns and then took myself up to bed to read some of my book. It was only about 19:00 by this time. I was able to read for about half an hour before the tiredness became too great and I had to succumb to sleep.

I woke up again at about 22:30 need the toilet. When I got back into bed I was still feeling tired but it took me some time to get back to sleep and my sleep was very light and restless. I have slept through until about 12:00 the following day, so I’m writing my journal on Friday morning, not last night.

I feel good though. Yesterday was another good day and although I did fancy some company towards the end of the day, and I mean friendship type company, not sexual company, I was OK to just be on my own still.

I did do my meditation when I woke up at 22:30. I’ve completed the basic foundation course, so I am now free to choose whatever I want from the library. I had already chosen the Sleep pack, which I shall practice with interest over the next 30 days. Hopefully I can increase the amount of restful sleep that I get every night.


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