JOURNAL ENTRY: Thursday 02 July 2015

I realised that I’ve become increasing distracted this last week or so.

In a way this has been a very good thing because I actually feel well. In fact I actually feel better than well, I feel unbelievably well. I feel a sense of ‘euphoric happiness’ to coin a beautiful phrase from today.

I realise that I haven’t been writing so much about my recovery as I’ve been ‘busy’ manifesting the intentions of my conscious-self, however, I still have an illness or two that I need to be mindful of and pay attention to, so that I do not get overly confident and cause my own relapse. (This has happened many times previously)

  • I’m only 1 month, 3 weeks and 2 days into my SAA recovery and
  • I’m only 1 month, 3 weeks and 1 day into my AA recovery

Whilst I’m making progress and don’t want to be too hard on myself, I do need to be mindful that a lot of others have done a lot longer than I have and have then relapsed. I coined a phrase a few years back when I was in a good place for a while:

Be inspired by those who shine brightly. Learn from the mistakes of those who don’t.

I think I know the secret to continued sobriety because I have started to take my own advice.

For example, I have spent all day being creative and writing and have thoroughly enjoyed it. The battery on my laptop finally ran out and I had already said to myself, ‘when that happens it is time to stop what you are doing and get ready for bed’. Part of my daily routine is to write my journal entry for the day. The bit of me that thinks I’m doing OK, said ‘nah, you’ll be alright, you can do it in the morning’. The recovering bit of me said, ‘nope, you are going to focus on the present moment and write your journal because it is the writing and the processing of the thoughts, feelings and actions associated with my recovery that are keeping me well. So here I am. All present and correct 🙂

Attending meetings has made me realise that people do fall off the wagon and people do relapse into depression. We can all live really busy lives and we sometimes forget that we actually need to respect and love ourselves enough to just do the basics and be compassionate to ourselves and to look after ourselves, both physically, mentally and spiritually. For me my daily basics have been the following 4 things:

  • Eat breakfast within an hour of waking
  • Shower
  • Do my daily readings from Answers in the Heart and Daily Reflections
  • Meditate for 20 minutes

I’m sure this list will grow, but for the time being it is enough. As I type this I know I should actually updates this list, so here’s my revised one:

  • Eat breakfast within an hour of waking
  • Shower (ideally within an hour of waking)
  • Do my daily readings from Answers in the Heart and Daily Reflections (ideally within an hour of waking)
  • Meditate for 20 minutes (ideally within an hour of waking)
  • Eat lunch within 4-6 hours of eating breakfast
  • Do at least 20 minutes exercise (a short walk is enough)
  • Eat dinner within 4-6 hours of eating lunch
  • Drink plenty of fluids
  • Write my journal entry for the day

This may sound simple but actually just writing this stuff down has made it real for me just now.

Because I am now listening to my own advice, I am finding that I am also open to listening to the advice of others.

It was actually Stuart yesterday, after our curry, who mentioned about having a daily plan.


This now makes sense. I will refer to my daily plan from now on and attempt to tick my daily achievements off with a sense of joy and fulfilment rather than seeing them as a chore.

Today I am well and today I am grateful for that.

Taking the time to write this for myself has actually calmed my mind and I know feel ready for sleep. Good night all x

Peace be with you all.


7 Replies to “JOURNAL ENTRY: Thursday 02 July 2015”

    1. A very gracious and humble thank your… we are all the same… we are all amazing, some of us just don’t know it yet 🙂 When you know that you know, you know. I know that you know 🙂

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    2. Hello and thank you old friend, so are you 🙂

      I just wanted to share with you that today I finally woke up and I mean I am FULLY AWAKE! I’ve managed to put my understanding of it here: It’s still a work in progress, but that’s all it ever needs to be.

      Peace be with you dear friend and thank you for your wisdom about I WANT and I AM. I realised that when the penny dropped it was your guidance that had awoken me. I no longer want to wake up, I am awake and I know the difference because I am the difference.

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      1. Yes You Are dear Warrior brother…the battles you have engaged prepared you for this journey…it is indeed in perfect timing….your beautiful awareness of Self is your I Am….no wanting desires..for you ARE… all the desires of your Soul….spoken with Love of Self..through your heart of Faith…..YOU enrich this world…Namaste’

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      2. Now that I am no longer searching I no longer want and I am free from desire. I am whole. I no longer need answers because there are no longer any questions. Who is I? I am 🙂

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