JOURNAL ENTRY: Wednesday 22 July 2015

All change today.

I’ve been living back at home at my mums for almost an entire year now. I sold my house about two years ago and invested the money in my business, paying other peoples wages. When I sold my house I moved in with my Dad and his partner for about 6 months before then moving in with my, now ex, girlfriend.

When things got too much between us I moved home and I have been here ever since.

Today I packed a couple of bags and moved back into my Dads new house temporarily for the summer. I am house sitting for him.

As much as I have loved living with my mum and I will enjoy and look forward to returning home again in 6 weeks, it is nice to have the opportunity to prove to myself that I can finally look after myself.

I have needed a lot of support over the last year or so and my mum has been absolutely amazing. She hasn’t ever questioned me, she has simply accepted me and let me get on with my recovery in my own way and in my own time. I don’t think either of us can believe how different I am now from even as little as six weeks ago. Once I started working the 12 steps, my life has just got better and better. It really does work, if you work it.

I’ve spent this afternoon cleaning and unpacking. I’ve also moved a lot of the furniture around, sorry Dad if you are reading this, but your house kind of feels like a show house, rather than a home. I prefer the more live in feel and like spaces that connect and flow with each other. I promise I’ll put it back once you get home 🙂

Apart from that, I’ve rested and simply enjoyed having absolutely nothing to do. It’s quite an amazing feeling, once you realise that time doesn’t exist and you can just do as you please in this moment, for as long as you choose.

I am looking forward to really getting into my step work and doing plenty of reading and writing. I have everything set up how I need it now, so when tomorrow morning comes, I can start to explore what this new and improved version of myself is capable of doing 🙂

I also have a new favourite quote. Some of you may recognise it from sometime in the not too distant future 😉

The acquisition of wealth is no longer the driving force in my life. I work to better myself and the rest of humanity.

Nice eh? Well I like it anyway and it embodies everything that I am now, in this moment, forever more.

Be well people. x

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