JOURNAL ENTRY: Wednesday 5 June 2019

Today I felt like I needed to step away from the keyboard and take some time out from writing. I’ve come to the end of the first autobiographical section, detailing the first half of the first half of my life and I’m aware that I’m unsure as to what to do next. I have an idea and I’m being guided, but as much as I tried to get into it and progress it today, it was never going to happen, so I went for a walk and took myself out for some lunch instead.

It actually turned out to be a very wise decision, as I ended up making contact with several people that I’ve been putting off for a while. I’m going to see Kathy, a friend who works in publishing, on Friday afternoon for a general chat and to help her out with some Office 365 stuff. I’ve arranged to see Nadia at some point in the not too distant future, to go through Steps 9 with her and I’ve arranged to go out for the day with PJ tomorrow. Hopefully we’ll take a day trip down to the coast, as I feel like I could really do with BEiNG under a blue sky, in a wide open space by the sea to just let go, relax and allow inspiration and intention to flow through me.

I also contacted Amanda, to see how she would feel about having a further conversation about what we both experienced in “the VOiD”. Part of me know’s that this needs to happen, but there is also a large part of me that doesn’t know how this will happen. I sense that Amanda’s story and experience is part of my “what next”. I don’t mean “what next” in terms of my writing, although I’m sure it would help, I mean “what next” in terms of “entering” the VOiD again. Moving from a (((SHARE)D CONSCiOUSNESS) to a SiNGULAR CONSCiOUSNESS.

In random other news, after only playing Apex Legends for the first time yesterday, I jumped back on this evening only to be presented with a patch update. Once this had installed I managed to get a couple of games in before I was hit by the server lag and connection timeout issue and the game became unplayable. This was a really bugger too, because I had just finished a game in the top 5 and earned a place in the elite group. The only reason I died was because my game froze and I got shot to pieces. I ended up having to turn it off and watch another episode of The OA instead, but hey, it’s free, so I’m not complaining.


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